The Beginning of Change

When I was growing up, I was a skinny kid.  I’m talking rail thin.  6’2″, 170 pounds thin.  Taco Bell everyday for lunch?  Sure!  Why not?

But, as happens to most of us, somewhere in my mid-20’s my metabolism ground to a halt.  Unfortunately, I wasn’t paying attention and continued to eat whatever I wanted.  And so I began to swell.

Several years into my steady progression of larger and larger clothing sizes, I ran across a t-shirt that I really liked, but wasn’t available in a size that I could wear.

Something about the shirt struck me, though, so I bought it in XL and stuck it in the back of my closet.  Maybe someday…

In August 2011, as I was up to nearly 300 pounds, I finally woke up to the fact that things needed to change.  Drastically.  So I signed up for a strictly regimented diet program.  And I immediately saw results.

One morning, a couple of months into the diet, I was deciding what to wear.  And the thought popped into my head, “What about that t-shirt in the back of the closet?”  I honestly hadn’t thought about it since I’d stuck it in the closet several years earlier.  So, I tried it on.

And it fit.

As I looked in the mirror, I was stunned.  A switch in my head flipped on.  And the words that came out of my mouth shocked me:

“I can change.”

And the words after that brought me to tears:

“If I can change this physical part of me, what else can I change?  What other unnecessary weight have I been carrying around with me?  What habits?  What thoughts?  What else have I assumed could never be different?  What else needs to change?

“Because it’s time.  I get it.  I.  Can.  Change.”

By the end of 2011, I had lost one hundred pounds.

And the person I am two years later is not the same person I was a hundred pounds ago.

It’s been a long road, and God knows it’s not over yet by a long shot, but I’m getting there.  Slowly.  I will get there.  The fact that I’ve even come this far is evidence enough of that for me.

 Proof that I can change

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